Would I have enough love for baby number two

Would I have enough love for baby number two

They say it just happens, that you see that new baby and your heart just expands and while you love them equally as your first, you additionally love them with your whole heart as well.

They say not to worry the feelings are normal, but that with each baby you just grow more love and dish it out the same…. but I questioned it, what if I was the one…. what if it didn’t happen for me? My first daughter and I had been together a long time, like best friends, how was there any of my heart left to give to a new baby, since I had already given it all to her? What is I didn’t have enough love left over to give to the new baby, and what if she felt like it wasn’t equal.

My mind went in a million directions, questioning all the things, wondering all the things. I would cry, but I’m really not a crier at all…. but I know if I was this would be one of the moments that would make me cry. I mean, there I was weeks away from welcoming a new baby that I had waited so long for, and now I was unsure that I had enough love for her, because of how deeply I loved my first……

But it was exactly what happened, I held her, and looked into her eyes, and in that moment, I loved with every piece of my being, just the same way I loved her sister… that I still did love her sister, it just doubled… and in that moment with both girls in my arms… I felt fulfilled, I felt like this is how it was supposed to be all along, like this is how it was all along, loving two girls so much I could burst, all the worry… all the concern… it just melted away, I completely forgot about it…. because I was consumed with what it felt like to love two children!
Image taken when my youngest was 12m

Would I have enough love for baby number two